today i found out that my cousin has leukemia. she found out last night and now has to spend the next few weeks at Princess Margaret Hospital getting poked and prodded further. they don't know what stage it is, or if they've caught it early, for now she has to dwell on those 3 words "you have cancer". I'm still in shock. i don't really know how to feel. we aren't really close but she is after all family.

no words

this morning i turned on the news and the first thing to greet me was a story about a woman who had drowned her to two small children in the bathtub.

HOW THE FUCK COULD SOMEONE DO SOMETHING LIKE THIS!!!?????

i mean how can you sit or kneel or whatever and stare at your children and watch the life leave their eyes? it.... i can't.... i just can't believe that this is something that a human being could think is an O.K. solution! and she didn't do it because she was depressed or schizophrenic, she didn't have a mental disease, although i guess now that could be debated. she did it because she wanted to go back to Australia with her children. but because her and her husband were in a custody battle, i guess she figured if she can't have them then no one can?! normally i do not condone the death penalty (and I'm happy that Canada doesn't) but in her case I'd inject the potassium chloride myself! there are few things that make me so angry i literally could punch babies and this is one of them.

i've come up with the conclusion that i am a bad friend.

Canada FTW!

it's been a while (so much for once a week) since my last post so what perfect topic to discuss than the Olympics!?

Usually I'm not that into sports except for hockey and the occasional football and curling game. yes i like curling, it's awesome! what is not to like? it's like bowling on ice! but when the Olympics come on i can't help but get excited. it must come from some inherent need to watch Canadians beat everyone at everything if only to show how incredibly awesome we are!! i only look forward to the winter Olympics though, i don't really get excited about the summer Olympics except for the equestrian sports.

anyways, so I've been watching it when I'm not working and so far we're doing OK. i know that realistically we can't win all of the gold medals but it'd be nice if we could at least come into the top 10. last night though i was excited to see the men's half pipe final for snowboarding and wow was it good! Shaun White did not disappoint. i know that he is from the U.S of A, but man o man i wish i could do some of the tricks he can, boy has got some serious skills!

I'm excited about tonight's hockey game, hopefully it will be good. Really the only medal that counts when it comes to the Olympic winter games is hockey, it is after all our sport. last time in Turin it was just embarrassing. this year we better at least win bronze or else i think the players might actually be disowned by the country. my mom doesn't think we will win, she believes that the Russians are going to take gold (she's a traitor and i have exiled her accordingly). I've been watching the women's hockey team too but i can't sit through an entire game. we've just dominated the other teams we've played, killing then on the scoreboard. it's not very entertaining, mostly because i feel sorry for the other team.

one think I'd like to mention before i stop blabbing; why the hell is figure skating considered a sport?!?!? i mean it is essentially dancing on ice. i know that triple and quadruple axles are hard as well as other technical things that i don't know names for but seriously? i think that if figure skating is considered a winter Olympics sport then shouldn't dancing be considered for the summer Olympics? So You Think You Can Dance is amazing and they train their butts off to really bring it when they perform on stage, how is that any different than figure skating?

*waves Canadian flag dramatically*

cakes part deuce

so......... my first attempt at making a giant cupcake failed horribly! my second attempt though was a success! i baked the cake the night before using 2 cake mixes, covered it with blue and pink fondant, and cut out flowers to decorate it with, a cake fit for a 5 year old. that's how i roll. I'm all about 5 year old birthdays! it looked pretty good although there were some cracks in the fondant and some frosting showing, but I'm pretty happy about the way it turned out.